Cancer Stinks


Cancer Stinks


  • Cancer is horrible. 
    • It’s mutation of regenerative cells that are meant to heal, but instead create unnecessary growths that can lead to death. 
    • It reminds me of a Doctor Who episode involving World War 2, children and a monster that wants its mummy. Yes, I realize that describes a lot of Dr. Who Episodes. :)

Are you my mummy is like cancer
  • Rationally:
    • I don’t want to feel awful or sad. 
    • Our family is going to be okay. 
    • Dad, in the long run, is going to be okay. 
      • Whether he is healed or goes to heaven it’s going to end well for him.
    • It could be worse. 
    • It could be better. 
    • It could be a lot of things. 
    • Mentally, I get upset that I’m overly dramatic at times, and not affected enough other times.

  • Theology:
    • I hate cancer. 
    • It is not a blessing. 
    • It is not curse my family brought upon itself. 
    • It is not fun. 
    • It is not good. 
    • God can bring blessings out of this because he is God, and he can bring beauty out of ugly things. 
      • But God did not choose to bestow this upon my family to teach us something. 
      • God does not enjoy cancer. 
      • Why does he allow it? 
        • Because he allowed us to live apart from him if we chose, and anything apart from God leads to brokenness.
        • Thistles and cancer grow because we no longer walk with God in Eden.
  • Emotionally:
    • It feels lonely. 
    • It feels awful. 
    • It makes me angry; sometimes at God. 
      • And he can take it. 
    • God agrees life isn't always fair. 
      • He had to die on a cross for my sins; that was not fair. 
      • He has seen, and felt pain. 
      • He sees my pain. 
      • My anger is okay, 
        • I’m just not supposed to direct it at other people in my life.
  • Physically:
    • I’m not the one battling it; my dad is. 
    • But my mom, my dad, and my brother are at times, all exhausted. 
    • Sometimes, my mom’s closest friends are also made very tired by it. 
    • It affects everything.
  • Actively:
    • We fight it. 
    • My dad fights it with a good attitude. 
    • I fight against my brain for my right to be emotionally not okay,
      • It doesn't like me to go there. 
      • My brain would love to dump my emotions in a hole and let them never be realized. 
      • I have to give myself the right to be not okay, and that is okay. 
      • Some days I forget it’s happening, and that’s okay. 
      • Some days it’s all I can think about, and those days are hard. 
        • It's not good that things are bad, but that is okay.
  • Yep, it's not good or fun. It's real, and it's okay that it has an effect on my life.
And now for something completely different a sketch I made. Notice Americanization of the text...:)

Are you my mummy Dr. Who Sketch
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